I can still remember the many times I dreamed and thought  to have someone that can see me clearly when everything else is blur. Remembering the times that I question myself how I was able to live life on my own  with self-motivation, self-pursuance, self-eagerness and self-fulfillment. Those times that I hope to better understand myself and where I am going.

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Surprises are made by someone. Surprises are chosen by someone. But sometimes, they just came along from our own and then, we immediately come along without us knowing. 

Surprises are made by someone. I might not have given myself the whole trust it deserves, but I guess it is right to give myself time to find what it can experience from other people. I just might not know, that this missing trust might find its way back home because someone intended to look for it.

Surprises are chosen by someone. We can always thank God for generous people who wanted to share their lives to us and we don’t always expect this from all individuals who exist. There are just a few of them. A few of them who chooses to experience more of life with other people.

But sometimes, they just came along from our own and then, we immediately come along without us knowing. But there are these significant moments in our lives wherein we are busy realizing the surprises that other people made for someone and thinking about the surprises that other people chosen for someone, we then forget to see ourselves and the surprises we made for our own.

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I am always grateful how my family and friends are making my each day a blessing. I may have lost my directions, yet they never abandoned me through thick and thin. But for more than several times, I keep myself busy of thinking about their concern for me and consequently, long for a special comfort that I felt before and lose and wanted to seek again.

Eventually, my senses didn’t speak, but my thoughts and my feelings yelled it out.

The  longing was there. But the presence despite of the absence is  more present. It surprised me and I cannot resist. I questioned. I paused.

The surprises just came along on its own and I immediately come along without myself knowing. 

I can say that God may have made this for someone – me, to complete my missing trust, or God may have chosen this for someone – me, to make me and other people mutually share our lives, or it’s just that my thoughts and feelings yelled that it is this someone who can see me clearly when everything else is blur.

A question may be raised from within, but I don’t need an answer because  I know it may not be certain but I know it is true.

His physical absence may want me to get near to him, but his presence in my thoughts is enough to make me contented  that he can take away all the longing in me.

It may be a surprise to have him around, but I am glad I come along.