Who would never have dreams of happiness and serenity?
When I was a little child, I lived in a happy family. Family of love, family of Sensible Caress and a family living in God‘s fear. As a child, I never gone into the thought of how life can be able to make its own perplexities and make it even more meaningful.
Different people have different stories. Different people have different dreams. And right now, I am willing to share to you my dreams. My Big dreams which are just subtle reality for most people.
All of us have a family. I have a family. You have a family. I have a complete family. My Papa, My Mama, and 2 little sisters. Nothing is unusual.
A lot of people I knew see me as a family-oriented person. They see my family in the present as something that I have in the past and but truthfully, had just become my dream for the future. But some people just don’t know how much I desired for what they perceived to become a reality.
Since I was 12, I always keep a battle against my tears not to fall every time I attend a Mass seeing complete families around during the sign of peace every time I see them kissing their parents and their siblings. It is even harder whenever I see my classmates attending masses with their families. I even questioned, “when will be the time that I can attend a mass when I’ll be kissing my parents and siblings too?” This is because most of the time, I come to attend mass alone or with my friends. You might ask, Is just that all I wanted? Why can’t I just pull my family and let them attend it?
My father met an accident when I was 12 and he gets a hard time walking to far, sitting from standing and standing from sitting. I can’t even afford to see my Papa stand for the whole mass duration just for this dream to happen. There was a time that all of us attended a mass but it was during the burial mass of my Grandmother and my closest aunt. I can’t even wished for another death in the family for us to come together for a mass.
Since that accident happened, all of the travel, the getaways, had become into a dream. Going to a mall and stroll around with my family had always been a dream for me. Going to the beach, building a house with two-storeys had become impossibilities.
Every time I went home, I am always thankful in each day that I am with my family eating together, watching TV together, sharing stories together, those were the happiest moments of my life that I don’t want to miss forever. I choose to forget those moments like traveling with them, living in a 2-storey house, going to malls, to the beach, to the restaurants that will only frustrate me. I wanted to live the every day in a simple way being happy with them.
I admit that in every travel I make, I am not that superficially happy because I can feel it alone. If I’d be able to choose an option whether to live with impossibilities but with my family together, or live a life of attainment alone, then I will always settle with my family.
Given with these situations, still I never doubted God’s power that some time He will heal my Father and make all my big dreams into realities.